May Cause Envy!

when i was a kid i used to be jealous whenever something had happened really exciting to people around me. I remember when my best friend "akshath" used to come to school in a maruti car, i seethed with jealousy. I thought that it was so unfair that he was blessed with all the bliss in the world. I was jealous and was even angry that his father was a man of means. 

When something really good happened to akshath i felt that " i wish i was akshath". Not only with akshath, i used to feel envy when someone was happy and i remember saying in my mind " darnit, i wish i was him/her". Though all the others would think that i was a man after their heart, i felt envy and i couldn't recover from that feel and i was unable to talk with them. I would escape saying that there was a frog in my throat. 

The strange thing is that i felt jealous only when something good happened to them. I wasn't able to get the reason why i was not jealous when their parents abandoned trick-or-treating for silly reasons. I was in a dizzy sensation. That day i realized that i was a hard nut to crack. 

I had asked my father and complained him about the above situation of mine every time i returned from school. He told me that other's life is no more perfect than yours. Stop desiring to be another individual and simply acknowledge that sometimes you cannot get what others have. I love my dad. 

I silenced my voice and it had started to make sense. The next time something great happened to akshath, i didn't have the same response. Instead of envying him, i was just able to snap out of the ugly reactions. When a friend would share really good with me, i enjoyed his happiness. 

Once my attitude changed, i felt comfortable and i was totally happy for the joys of others. And also i felt total compassion for those who were in despair. 

If we see ourselves in others, we may not get jealous. It would be silly if we feel jealous of ourselves right? and that's how i thought everyone as a piece of mine.
When we feel jealous of others, we would be disconnecting from a live world and that will be the end of our world. If something bad happens to others and if we think that " thank god that wasn't me", stop thinking because it was on ourselves we are feeling envy on. 

I have some friends who feel happy when i share good news with them and i'm very fortunate to have them. I love you all machhas. When we are comfortable with who we are and what we have, we will stop being jealous of others.

The situation of being jealous on akshath crept into my mind when i recently met him. People change with time. The ones with whom we are happy now may depart in no time. Go on living each moment and strive to be a good human. Kill all the "arishadvargas" which are the fundamental tenets of this kaliyuga.