Suddenly, i have a feeling that i have lost something very vital. I was thrown into a deep space and was dubious about being dead or alive. I lost all the earthly thing in me.
Sometimes, I feel very weak and so i was happy that the dead cannot feel anything and i was happy that i was thinking but the dead cannot.
I cannot remember the past which is almost hazy. I even don't know who has kept me in this situation. Are they friends?? or foes??
I don't know why all these things are creeping into my mind. I was tired of abusing myself a CRAFT ( Cant Remember a Freaking Thing).
I tried to concentrate to recover my memory but whenever i did this, it just stopped my thinking process. I was totally in despair now.
For all the living things, the only one who listens to one's sufferings is GOD.
I asked him why all this is happening to me. He replied soon as if i wrote an "RSVP" in a letter and posted to him. I was taken to awe when he finally said in the words of swami vivekananda
"To know thyself" is the highest and practically the end of all knowledge which a man wants to acquire.
After this i was not fetching for what i had lost. The dilemma of "dead or alive" came to an end when i realized that it was "FEAR" what i had lost. This realization made me smile a bit.
